TGIF-Quick Post

YAY, I have been dreading everyday of work this week. And extremely angry feeling upon waking up before the sun rises in the morning just to be to work. For some reason it does not feel right. Plus, what wakes us up to begin with is the sun. I don't quite remember what it is in the sun that does it, but all I know is that is what wakes us up.
And to be up before the sun is hard. I go through a cup of coffee at home, then arrive at work go to the lunch room and put on a pot for the whole lot of coffee drinkers. And drink about half the pot and leave some for the two others that drink coffee and it still isn't enough to wake me.
So, now that is is friday I am so excited. I also don't have to keep saying every morning before I head to work to my father 'I don't want to go, I am too tired.'.... It was getting to the point my father could call when I was about to say it, the same few words every morning, but in a making of sort of mocking tone and then laugh at me then say 'yeah yeah, you say that every morning.'
So, for now I am going to drink the cup I have right now and then head off for work. Thank God for fridays really, because it is dress down day at work so into a pair of jeans I go!
Have a good day everyone! I know I will.

Venting and Ranting

It has certainly been a while since I have wrote on here. I have recently started a new job. So, my attention even on my days off go entirely to my husband and wee one. I feel bad for not being about to write and talk about my day. To be honest when it comes to my work. There is not a thing worth talking about. I am a telemarketer for a new company starting up and no one would care to read about that. As a lot of people don't like being bugged from us as it is anyways.
All I can say for now is, I am starting to not like it. I know I might have mention during my week of training that I was enjoying myself, but to be honest, when I was a little girl growing up. I have never dreamt that when I grew that I wanted to be a telemarketer. I always wanted to be a beautician. Take all the courses from hair, cosmetology, nails etc. And also take a business course and open up my own shop in my name. I always wanted to be known as Ashley Morin. That would be my shop.
I just don't have the time to go to do all the schooling I need now that I have my little one. I need a job paying decent money an hour to afford paying off the bills.
I do not regret having my daughter by any means.I just wish I waited, so that I was well off and able to bring her up according to how I always wanted to bring up any child I ever will have. I fill like I am depriving her from everything from not going to school. Not graduating. Being a high school drop out gets you no where's. That's for sure!
All I can do is pray and hope that she does not follow in my foot steps and when I tell her at an appropriate age of my mistakes that she doesn't hold it against me when she decides that because she is having a bad day that she wants to quit school. And when I scold her for it, I just hope she doesn't pull the whole 'well you quit school, so why can't I' saying.
I already been through this with my younger brother and he kept saying that all the time to my parents about me quitting school. I was not much of a role model for him, which is sad and I want to be for him and my daughter.
So, yes this all boils down to me not liking my job and the best thing to do is for me to wait until Aaliyah completes high school, then I will go to take all those beauty courses. It is never too late to start anything as long as you're living.
Sorry for my ranting and venting out on here. Have a good one.
Oh and if my friend Dave who is following me, if you are reading this please note that blogger is boring out your posts! I check regularly for updates from you.

Blast From The Past

I had a good giggle just a few moments ago, while browsing for my very top 20 first blogs I wrote. I can honestly say that 1), my writing sucked hard core back then, 2). I tried too hard to have the perfect blog post so I could have traffic (which I also had a button made for donations on paypal 'LAME') and 3). I am happy that I started blogging at all, because if you look at my very first few posts, you will see a big difference between my recent posts and my very firs posts. I have improved on my writing so much!
Although, I am no professional writer, nor do I have a major in english, spelling & grammar, but I will boast in the fact that I am a lot better now.
I have come a long way. Especially when considering the fact that back then I thought I was the best writer in the world back then. And I am sure as time flies to another year from now. My posts that I am so proud of now I will see the silly and lame things in them that I don't see now.
Since I am trying to improve my writing I must go for now. I actually have some ideas for my current book I am in the process of writing to jot down before I forget.
Happy blogging everyone!

Missing Memories

So I got thinking of the many people who I have lost along this journey in life and are no longer with us in this race. I miss all the wonderful memories that I have made with all of the beautiful souls that I had the chance to be friends with and I am feeling a little sad about all the loved ones.
So, what I am going to do in the following part of this particular blog is mention the names of the lost ones along with some lyrics to a song which relates to how I am feeling along with the youtube video to the lyrics.
To all the friends that I have lost along the way: Grampy Gerry Amero, Great Grampy Alfred Vail, Great Grammy Greta Vail, Grampy Ernest, Alicia Little, Jimmy Sheehan, Randy Trott Sr, Al Cannon, Conrad Sommers & Donnie Perry.
I miss you all so much! This following song with lyrics is for you all.

One Sweet Day Lyrics: (Please Read these lyrics, they are so touching)
Sorry, I've never told you, all I wanted to sayAnd now it's too late to hold you'Cause you've flown awaySo far away
Never had I imaginedLiving without your smileFeelin' and knowing you, hear meIt keeps me alive, alive
And I know you're shining down on me from HeavenLike so many friends we've lost along the wayAnd I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet dayEventually I'll see you in Heaven
Darling, I never showed youAssumed you'd always be thereI, I took your presence for grantedBut I always caredAnd I miss the love we shared
I know you're shining down on me from HeavenLike so many friends we've lost along the wayAnd I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet dayPicture a little scene from Heaven
Although, the sun will never shine the sameI'll always look to a brighter dayYeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleepYou will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from heavenLike so many friends we've lost along the wayAnd I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from HeavenLike so many friends we've lost along the wayAnd I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet day
Sorry, I never told youAll I wanted to say

Hired Then Fired

Just to be clear I am not talking about myself in this post. I did not get fired. However, today my boss let go a guy for whatever reasons and mentioned it to us in the board room that he let this particular guy go. It is just so sad really, because we all just started this Monday and now Friday is here and he let him go. I don't know why. I feel like our boss made a decision too quickly even though I don't know the actual reason, I am sure whatever it was there could have been some way of reasoning with him instead of just letting someone go.
I am kind of sad that this guy is gone, because of the fact that we all are so very comfortable with each other. It took us up until yesterday to really get comfortable and I was really finding myself the most comfortable around the guy who was let go. He and I had a lot of things in common we liked watching the same things and we are both 'fatties' and loved out food so we talked about recipes and things and laughed about a lot and he was the life the party so to speak (while in the board room).
What kind of sets me off now is the fact that I am not too sure if my job even secure especially not knowing the reason behind my fellow co-worker being fired, who knows now? Am I next? I sure hope not.
Anyways next week is a new week and I sure hope that the firing had nothing to do with any of the things he talked about in the boardroom, because he was very opinionated in a lot of ways. I guess I will never really know as to why he was let go.
I am just some what fearing for my position at SuperPro now that maybe none of us are safe. Well it is the weekend now and I must unwind from all things work.
Have a good weekend to all you hard workers and may your weekend be eventful and fun!

A Post About A Fellow Writer

I did it!! YAY. I am so happy right now. I have a friend who is a writer and have kind of encouraged him to publish and showed him the site I used to self publish. From the time we have been talking about writing up until tonight, he has been hesitant of what his genre was and did not share any pieces of his work not even a sentence of his work until tonight.
We conversed through facebook chat and I shared with him where he could log onto a site where I had upload a novel I wrote which I am still working on. And by doing so I think he felt he could trust me enough to e-mail me the first two chapters of his book. Which are intriguing and delightful, but sad because his vision of what he wants the book to be now has changed some what and he won't be putting the first two chapters in that I have read due to reasons I do not have permission to disclose at this time.
However, if I ever have his full permission to discuss the genre in which he has chosen to write about and what all happens I will. All I can say is that I am glad to be one of the first to read it (well not one of the first to be correct, because from my understanding through his posts on blogger; he has his manager reading along and giving their input on it and such) so I am maybe the second or third or whatever, because I did not ask if he lets anyone else read his stuff besides his manager and myself.
So, until I know otherwise we will say I am about the 2nd or 3rd person to have the privilege of reading his work.
Dave is truly a talented writer and after reading his first 2 chapters, I was embarrassed of my own sloppy writing. If you want to keep updated on Dave and his progress with his book you can follow him on blogger at : Dave's Blog <<click me>> .
I hope that you all enjoy what you read on his blog. Well I must bow out for the night, because tomorrow is my first day of a new job and I need sleep. So good night to you all.

Pre-First Day Jitters

I am a day away from my first day of my new job. I start tomorrow and I got the scared feeling in my stomach like the first day of school feeling. Not because of it being my first day of work, but more so for my daughter and it being her first day of day care. She will be around new people and kids (which she is not yet use to), although thank God my cousin Melodie is the one who owns this day care and Aaliyah will be with family. Because I can't see myself putting Aaliyah in any other day care. I remember when my aunt Rita use to watch me for my parents when they use to work, back when we all lived in Oshawa Ontario and I use to get scared as soon as my parents would leave. I always thought they would not come back for me, but at the end of the day it was a relief when they would walk in the door after work to come pick me up. It is funny, because I knew they would come, but that fear always crept in when they left every day.
I just don't want my Aaliyah to feel the same way. I hope that she knows that we will not leave her ever. And hopefully she will notice the pattern of us coming back at the end of the day.
I am kind of sad that I had to get a job, because it will take away from my writting and my daughter, but a regular pay cheque is what we need right now more than anything.
Lets hope that by this time next year that we will have things in a nice orderly fashion.