Afraid Of The Dark

No I am not talking about myself in the title of this post. It is about Aaliyah, of course! I had a hard time getting her to go to bed Tuesday and Wednesday night this week, which was the first time ever to be honest. She loves going to bed, that is the only time she can have a bottle, since we don't give her a bottle of milk through out the day anymore, we give her juice, water etc to ween her off the bottle and soon enough won't need it for bed.
I never said aloud for her to hear me about being afraid of the dark, but I did mention it to Jonathan in front her, but I spelled it out, like most parents do when they don't want their kid to know what their parents are talking about.
So, to test my theory of her being afraid of the dark happened to be true, so when Thursday night came along, I tried putting her to bed, but she acted like she did the last few nights, which was as soon as we closed the door and turn off the light she started freaking out and crying. So, I laid her back down into her bed and left the light on while I read to her and sang to her along with massaging her forehead, temples, bridge of the nose and her scalp. She eventually fell asleep, so I left her room with the light on and door opened. And she slept through the night.
I never had this problem up until about 3 or 4 days ago. I just don't know where she would get the idea in her head to be scared. She always slept with the light off before. I am almost thinking this is something she might of heard kids from her day care talking about, because I never brought anything of the such to her attention, because I certainly don't want to have her sleeping with me. Don't get me wrong I love having her sleep in bed when she is sick, because I know when a child is sick they need their Mom, but when she is not sick and sleeping in bed with Jonathan and I, she is a squirmy worm!  She can't decide who's side of the bed she is going to sleep on. By morning Jonathan and I are far apart with a good huge 2 foot gap between us, we are so close to the edge of the bed, that we could fall off!
Anyways, I wish this was not the case. I live next door to our landlord and I don't want him coming to the door after a while of noticing the light being on in her room, because he is pretty anal that way. Complains about everything.
Well I best be off to bed.

Big Scare

Aaliyah gave me a huge scare today. See I was busy cleaning up the house and she was down for a nap and near the end when I was almost done and getting close to just taking a break before finishing off the last bit of housework she woke up and I could hear her in her room playing and what not so everything seemed fine from what I could hear of her in her room while doing housework.
Once I was done completing most of the housework I walk into her room to let her out and the first thing I see is her standing on top of her infant couch style chair for one scared me (the least once I tell  you what happened next) she was smiling at me then puts her hands in her mouth and was some what gagging and then she pulls out a tack! Yes a tack that is used to pin things up on the wall. Then I freaked out and ran to her and took it from her and out of the fear running through me I smacked her behind then looked around on her walls to see what was on the walls that was no longer there which was mini string lights on the floor. Which I used tacks to hang them up on the wall. Part of the string was slightly hanging for the past week in reach for Aaliyah to grab, and she was grabbing at it all week and it seemed sturdy enough for her to pull on with out it budging.
However, this time obviously she tugged hard enough to yank it down along with the 3 other tacks that were holding it up in place. Fear running through me when I realized that the two other tacks that had helped hanging this mini string was no where's to be found. So, then I got to thinking that she swallowed the other 2 somehow. I was sticking my fingers down her throat, with no luck of getting anything. So, I watched out for signs for about 10 minutes, because if she started coughing at all then that would be a clear indication she might have the other 2 lodged in her throat. But thank God after waiting I really searched her room and found the 2 other tacks in one of her toy boxes.
So, to my relief she hasn't choked on or swallowed the other 2 at all. I am telling you I was so scared, I have never felt so scared about anything in my entire life. My greatest fears as a kid growing up does not compare to the fear of something harming your own child.
After I found the 2 other tacks I took into a hard deep heaved crying fest holding and hugging her and kissing her and thanking God she was going to be okay. I am sure I was sitting on the floor holding and hugging her for a good 30 minutes before I could compose myself. I am so thankful that I do not have to be calling 911 to bring her to the emergency to get a scan to see if she fully ingested the tacks or got any of the tacks lodged into her throat and possible surgery to have them taken out. That would have to be the worst thing ever in the world.
I have definitely discarded those damned lights along with the tacks. I am not hanging up anything in her room at all that requires a simple tack. Only cute little disney sticker art for her bedroom or tape. Other than that nothing will be going on her walls for a very long time.
I am so grateful to God for protecting her. Jonathan and I pray for her everyday for her safety and protection from him and I know that during my time of house cleaning he was there protecting her until the very moment I walked in her bedroom to get her.