Restless

I have been suffering all my life off and on with sleeping disorder of some type. I never went to a doctor thinking that it was normal, because that's the way I am I guess. I am really messed up I can't sleep and I don't know why. I search online all the time all the things to do, being in a bed time routine of winding down and journaling my thoughts in case something may be on my mind, and even planning out my day for tomorrow to help me from thinking about it while trying to sleep. I even set the face of my digital alarm clock face down so the light doesn't interfere with the melatonins and what not, but it does not seem to help. Drinking herbal teas don't help either. Neither does yoga or meditation. And I didn't just try all of the above only for night and expect results I stuck with them all for longs periods of time and still nothing. I am beginning to get really ticked off with being too tired all the time.
I hope talking about it on here helps me, and I am going to bed now, good night.

Relieved

The past week or so I have been stressed out with some information told to me about someone close to me. And have not had the desire to write on my blog or even keep up with my current writing projects. My Mother's life was potentially on the line. There was a growth in her down below part, which the doctor said they were going to do some tests first before determining what it really was, but the doctor was certain that it was terminal cancer.
After a week for the results of this test to come in, I am relieved to say that it is all good news and no cancer is to be found in my Mom. Apparently the growth is a fibre growth which is normal and removable; Thank God! I have been in a rut of thinking 'I'm possibly going to be losing my Mom to cancer,'... What a relief it is to know that she is going to be fine.
I love my Mom so much and would not know what do with out her in my life especially her dying so early in life. She is only 47 years old, and I want to see her live well up into her 80's or 90's or heck maybe until she's 100! The sad part of all of this that was getting to me the most, was the fact that we live provinces away and would not have enough money saved up to come to a funeral if it all had lead to this and that is what really bothered me, because I want to be there with her through it all.
All I can say now is that I am so thankful that all my prayers and the prayers of others have been answered on behalf of my Mom. I hope that no one else has to go through this sort of a scare, because the thought of losing someone you love is heart wrenching and leaves you feeling hopeless.

My 3 Year Anniversary

Tomorrow is my 3 year anniversary and I am excited! Although, we already celebrated it this weekend by doing a mystery shop for the Ramada Inn. So we got the room for very cheap and plus they reimburse us after Jonathan sends in a report about the cleanliness, good customer service etc. It was an enjoyable time. We spent our evening in the pool swimming and also taking turns switching off from the hot tub to the pool. So whoever was in the pool took care of Aaliyah since the hot tub too hot for her little delicate skin. We both went down the slide a few times as well (which kind of sucked to be honest) only because the water was barely running down the slide and was hardly going fast at all.
At the end of our swim though we did bring Aaliyah to the edge of the hot tub and took little bits of water in our hands and lightly sprinkled and rubbed water on her to warm her up as she was starting to get some purple little lips. As she got use to the extreme warmness we did get her to sit at the very first step into the hot tub and not too long after that, she did warm up a bit!
We sat up and watched a movie before bed than I helped Jonathan type up some reports for a few Instaloans and Cashstore mystery shops that he did earlier this week, then I went to bed.
We had a morning wake up call for 7:30 am and not too long after that, about 20 minutes later all three of us walked downstairs for the continental breakfast. It was good, there was fresh fruit (which Aaliyah went to town on) I made a homemade waffled on the griddle waffle maker thing-a-ma-bob. I also had some fresh coffee and grilled cheese, while Jonathan went to town on the crispy bacon strips.
I actually liked this stay here, we actually got a little mini living room this time instead of a room with two huge beds which we have no use for, because we always take on one bed. Our room number this time around was 208. I told Jonathan sometime last night or was it this morning?? Hmm I don't know, but yeah anyways what I was telling him is that I wouldn't complain if he took on all the Ramada Inn assignments for his mystery shop company that he works for, because 1) It's free (well once they reimburse you 2) You get paid to go there and 3) It is so much fun for a night out of town!
This was nice way to celebrate our anniversary and I would do it again! I know some people would say to me that it was all ruined because we had our daughter come along, but to me I enjoy being with my family and I wouldn't have it any other way to be honest. Yes I will say I miss the days when I did not have to spend an hour later after wanting to go to bed myself, but I still rather have my own flesh and blood with me than pushed onto a baby sitter all the time and every time we go out.
Just recently about a week ago we had Aaliyah spend the night at her day care, due to myself working over night and also Jonathan having some work dodgeball tournament and when I got home I did not like it. I missed her so much, so I rather have her here with us instead of with her day care.
It wouldn't be much of an anniversary with out as her she completes our family.

I`m Up Early!

I am so happy today! I got up early at 5:00 am once my daughter had cried a little before 5:00 am. I brought her to bed with me, and just laid there unable to fall back asleep. So I got up got my coffee machine on the go, went to the little ladies room. Enjoyed myself a nice cup of java along-side me and my coffee was my bible. I sat down for maybe 45 minutes to an hour reading (which is something I rarely get to do with-out interference).
After my bible reading and a cup close to empty I went down stairs and put on a load of laundry then came back upstairs, to find my husband just walking in the door from an over-night shift. We spoke briefly and greeted each other and I know by the look on his face that he was shocked to see me up at all. Since it takes my daughters crying and whining to get me out of bed. After he went to bed I did a sink full of dishes, now all the greasy stuff like pots and pans are soaking to get all the hardened on food off.
So, now I sit here being able to have time to write on my blogger which is nice for a change. It is kind of convenient too that I am up early, because our land-lady (who lives right next door) is coming over today for our ``inspection,`` of the house which was suppose to be done the week after we got settled into the house, so we can bring to her attention possible problems and what not that we would like to be fixed while living there. And here it is now about 3 months away from our lease being up. Not to mention how she wanted to talk to us about if we were going to renew our lease with her for another year or not. So, being up this early is going to be of some good! I can make the house look like a tornado ``didn`t`` hit it.
So, by for now I`ve got some work to do!